Why Am I Here?

First off, my european ancestors were looking for a better life, which happened to be the case at the time (15/16th century), my others (paternal) came from Czechoslovakia in the early 20th century. Since then, things have changed. My maternal is what I will be discussing since it goes back further and in particular my male blood line. My great-grandfather shot himself in the head with a shotgun, my grandfather came home from work and drank and watched Baseball in the dark in the living room or in his bedroom, my uncle has mild ______, and I, I have stopped caring.