Our Globe is Warming

Make the skies bluer
than they were before
Lets treat the earth
that gave birth to us
lets restore our atmosphere

I look up and see
-the tall evergreens
in backyards, front yards
-surrounding buildings
I wonder how old
-they all are
How long have they been here?
-standing tall
trying to reach the more sun
-giving all these mammals
-and reptiles the oxygen
we all require to survive

OUR ROME
I wish we were more
-like Rome
with so much tradition
-honoring our supreme leader
Commander-in-Chief
now thats a rank noble
-of a Roman-American

We could glorify ourselves
-in isolation
making it a glorious 21st century
-Golden age Rome
How blessed we would be
-bathing in community bathes
-building aqueducts
-and beautiful houses
-on the mediterranean coast

Our Rome will be marvelous
-we will sack neighboring
-colonies with impunity

LYING PROTECTS ME
To put it simply,
lying protects me
-from the exhaustion
-the discomfort
-and the embarasment

make the skies bluer cadets
purify the water
lets restore our atmosphere

Hate & Love, very close? Well they are on different spectrums of the same basic feeling. You hate passionately and love passionately, and sometimes when someone hates another person, it can turn into love or liking that person. As the reader well knows, say a girl makes fun of a guy or is nasty or inconsiderate to him, that can sometimes (of course not always) mean that girl likes the boy. In the past of my life, say lets focus on high school, there were a group of girls who made fun of me but I think that was because they kind of liked because later they would talk to me an inquire how I was doing. The complex actually has more relevance of making friends, in non-romantic and non-sexual ways. Two of my best friends that I have had in my life first begun in an antagonistic manner, with him and someone else being a kind of bully to me but after a few months (the first one) and a few years for the second one.

My dues

I owe a debt to Franz Kafka as do Philip Roth and Milas Kundera. His groundbreaking plot-lines opened another literary world, one of uncharted territory still being explored today. I worry that my story ideas are too kafkaesque and I should find other plot lines and structure if a story collection is to be complete. Other ideas that could turn into stories that I have interest in are Destiny, military history, science fiction, poetry, honor, westerns.

No Title

In my shorts the rain was coming down
heavier and louder
and harder

Under the trees
I started losing hope
of ever seeing the SUV
appear up the road

Instead the rain-forest
started to hypnotize me
into a dreamy state
where I hated nature and
especially the weak trees

The one about the terrorist...

"Don't forget Yosuf, you will be rewarded in the afterlife, have no fear, have faith, you control your own destiny," said emphatically his superior officer.
"Thank you grand-master, I will not let you down, I am blessed to carry out this mission in the name of Muhammad."
It was blistering hot outside, when they exited the house it him like a punch in the face, but these Muslim men have grown accustomed to it. Yosuf was the first one to leave, as his mission was undergone and he wanted to begin preparation immediately, he felt he shouldn't waste time. Others left after him but the grand-master and some of his assistants and those right behind him in rank stayed with him. Leaving amongst the crowd Yosuf believed, naturally, that they followed but because he wasn't thinking about it at the time, he didn't notice they were not.
Back in the house, Taimour approached the grand-master bearing a nasty looking grin and a snooty attitude (but those who desire the ___ ear must be in control of their emotions.)
"Sir, I have concerns"
"Of course you do, that is because you a dedicated and holy man"
"Well," continued Taimour, "I have been noticing lately that Yosuf is losing his sense of purpose, losing sight of his objectives and I worry he is not as completely dedicated as the others, I don't want to make any quick judgments or stir trouble but this mission is too important to have a skeptic among them."
"I agree Taimour about the importance of this mission, including the reliability of the men who have been chosen to carry it through but I'm afraid I have not noticed that about Yosuf, he is a good man and I believe he will carry out his deed."
"Yes, sir, I understand your ability to judge the character of men and women, something I would not be able to do with my youth but I'm just saying, worst-case scenario that we should keep a close eye on him."
"We keep close of all those who have been chose."
"But maybe we should pay extra attention to Yosuf, as he is one of the keys, one of the pilots."
"I will take your suggestions under consideration and for the time I will order a closer watch but we should not hold these beliefs among our own, we must be united."
"Yes, grand-master, I will abide," concluded Taimour.

UAV's

The military is all hyped about UAV's right now and one of my favorite potential ideas to reach full-speed in the future, I am looking forward to it. I will love to see UAV's flying with manned aircraft and one of my ideas is to store UAV's in the manned jets and the pilot has the ability to release and tell them where to ago. We need to require them to be automatic for this type of shit but if that happened around now either the pilot or a operator back at base. I would want the aircraft to have perhaps a cannon and quality firing system. Of course GPS, infrared and multiple camera angle to get a good look. Already it is understood that UAV's can travel at much higher supersonics that men can handle. So I guess it could be possible for UAV's to be launched in one corner of the world, any corner of the world and can attack or perform round the clock surveillance to support troops on the ground. This also gives the possibility in the future of a UAV's spaceship to travel to new worlds. The potential excites my imagination and gives something, at least one, to look forward to in the future. I should make some designs for a few side-views of a jet with these features attached. First off I need to do research about the shape of and basic design of UAV's, maybe the F-35 Raptor or an Apache Longbow but I don't think a helicopter would be able to store them on the vehicle, perhaps small ones but how do you design a weapon to be installed on such a small UAV. Perhaps you can put a cannon that can be put out underneath the "cockpit" which can be operated for the doors to be opened and closed. All this naturally will be automated or controlled by the pilot or someone back at base. The wings will be collapsable for better installing. Unlike Leonardo I don't really have an ethical problem with building weapons so I can be as destructive and evil as my imagination allows me. Especially in the modern warfare world where all sorts of destructive technologies exist to be taken advantage of by the destructive potential of imagination. I live to feel modern power in all forms. Watching the Military Channel after I watched all that was available On Demand I pity myself.
It would be ideal to stock a number of various types of UAV's onto a fighter jet, like a few for reconnaissance and a few for attacking. I should get a job designing military and industrial aircraft for Boeing or Lockheed Martin. But of course a problem occurs about the amount of space available on the aircraft when the factor of a vast array of JDAM's and other missiles comes into play. Thats what they say, you can't have everything you want.

Why Am I Here?

First off, my european ancestors were looking for a better life, which happened to be the case at the time (15/16th century), my others (paternal) came from Czechoslovakia in the early 20th century. Since then, things have changed. My maternal is what I will be discussing since it goes back further and in particular my male blood line. My great-grandfather shot himself in the head with a shotgun, my grandfather came home from work and drank and watched Baseball in the dark in the living room or in his bedroom, my uncle has mild ______, and I, I have stopped caring.

The revolution failed Abby
It has bitten the dust
Another one Bites the Dust
Another one...Another one
Another one Bites the Dust
Whatever happened to JFK and MILK?
Or you Abby, and Timothy Leary?
Can you not still accomplish things
behind bars?

Mental Health

I just read an article in the Christian Science Monitor () about the rising mental health problems that are currently attacking China. A reason for this is the fast progress being experienced by China for the last 20 years or so. This reminds of people directly after WWII believing they have seen UFOs. Though when these reports were read they were strikingly similar to the futuristic aircraft of WWII. So in the deeper parts of the US people very unfamiliar to the planes thought they were UFOs.

So with the quick advancement of China, mental health knocked, claiming primarily women with a ratio of 8:2. The reason for the problems with women in China is stress because men are grown up to repress their emotions and not show weakness. The biggest rate of suicide in the world is China, especially women between the ages of 15 and 34, with the visual above being a woman attempting to jump of a bridge with her best friend talking her out of it.

Source: >http://www.csmonitor.com/2007/1113/p06s01-woap.html.

HELL ON WHEELS

Hell on wheels
Hell on earth
Breath the fire
of that wood on earth
let that wood burn
from the wildfires I started
Its no time to feel pity
or sympathies
Its rather time, however
for ducking
and dodging
And spliting the spines
Of the pines

Ah,
My black one
Though art not luminous
Yet an altar of jewels
An altar of shimmering jewels,
Would pale in the light
Of thy darkness
Pale in the light
Of they nightness

-Langston Hughes

Misc

Its time for me to depart
to the countryside
and reclaim the calm
cool & collected
perspectives

try not to worry dear
your Judgments
cannot affect me ----
for that relationship
is Decaying
with everything else

my background in theatre
comprising of nothing
from my Black Hole in the Sun
don't let English dominate you
speak, speak...Speak!
in those romance languages
in those strange dialects
of the Global Village

where is the white men section
in bookstores?
I see women's studies
African-American studies
Hispanic, Asian, Pacific
but where is the section
that concerns me?

The Battle of Timers?

Hitting is like life
usually you lose
and only get it right
thirty three percent of the time
if your lucky
some go all for it
and tally up the K's
others more conservative
preferring contact over power
but when your timing is on
nothing is sweeter

what have I done in past lives
to deserve this?
was I Napoleon
or Stalin?
Nixon and the Bush's or
Hitler and Mussolini?
WHAT!!!?

Death

Suicide note draft

I have departed
hopefully to nothing
if possible I want to be cremated
and spread across the Atlantic Ocean
from whence my ancestors crossed
to reach here
I've been given the burden of life
something I didn't ask for
I've been given the burden of ending my life
something I didn't want to be given
however my burden will end
leaving only yours
I don want to sound inconsiderate
but that will end all the burdens that I have
these problems are no longer mine
they are yours
this is what I wanted, a cease
seeing faces in the ceiling
it put a smile on my face
thinking how wonderful it would be
not to see them anymore
to put an end to whatever horrors
are over the horizon
to languish in others frowns
to not know how anyone would react
for these is the rub
darkness will end
hopefully it will all end and I never come back
in any fucking form
the soul will decay
having passed on nothing of its horror
it will all decompose
from whence it came
leaving no traces
but simpler life emerging
doing it best to reach the sun
on second thought,
just throw my body into the woods
I plan on burning everything of mine
little by little so no one will notice
leaving no traces of my existence
only memories that will fade
and eventually those would end
like generations before
that were forgotten
only completing the cycle of life
you may call it cheating
but what the fuck do I care
I'm dead
-June 2007

Untitled

God I hate my life
I took a Zydone but
don't have enough
for all day
what will I do?
don't have booze
don't have pot
don't have caffeine
don't have anymore pills

If only I died
it could be so nice
it would be so great
to die and never see
another sunset or
another dawn
death begets blankness
nothingness, zero
the history of 0
speaks to history
no reincarnation
no soul exists
no where to go
no where to be seen
but down here on
the dead, cold earth
I hope to see black
I want to cringe my hair out
pull it out
hit my fists against concrete
and my head
against wood
I don't want to be buried
or cremated
but left to rot in the ground
never to come back
Heaven wouldn't do
Limbo wouldn't do
Hell wouldn't help
none of these will help
if my existence continues
like my brother
I have an eccentricity
tapping my foot on the floor
maybe its nervousness
or depression
or both
fall has greeted me coldly
like a slap on the face
its not giving me a fair chance
to keep things balanced
the median is non-existent
my ultimate goal
my current goal
my soon to be real goal
my hopefully eventual goal
-October 2007

I'm gonna join the military, see you in hell
-Will Kudner

Turn the pages of the season, bright and true

You say this is the coldest its been yet
or, this is the warmest
or the chilliest
for the wettest or the hottest
but when you are unaccustomed
to the varying degrees
to the changing seasons
because your body is unfamiiar
to the changing temperature
you become sure
this is the worst, or the best
its been so far

Poetry

Encapsulating Fog
Out my window, the view
a big evergreen tree shrouded in fog
alerts me to the weather status
drifting in and out
waking up now and then
foggy, clear, blue skies, foggy again
vapor accompanies the cigarette smoke
at night, walking around in the darkness
moving cars, looking mysterious
waiting for the veil of fog, un-coveted
to be lifted come noon

I can imagine
the fog and his shroud of cronies
hovering, traveling around
in the morning hours
encapsulating playgrounds
busy with playing children
and supermarket parking lots
and busy intersections
waiting for low eleven
disguising evergreens
from tree watchers
and selfish birds

A Comforting Dream
I had a dream
that we were to wake up
early in the morning
and walk miles and miles
back to the parking lot
but, when I awoke
from the Seroquel-inspired dream
I realized that all was well
that, not to worry
this happened months ago
and that I'm safe and warm
right now
in my bed

Some thoughts on Baseball

A Baseball game is similar in overall structure to that of a war, one comparison is its being made up of battles. The sport is made up of numerous competitions between batter and pitcher, which ultimately determines the outcome of the game. In other team sports, players must cooperate in order to score, in Baseball one can take it upon himself to score. It is mano e mano, slugger vs. flamethrower, the battles that decide the war. Of course partial exceptions can be made for people like Michael Vick in Football or Kobe Bryant in Basketball, but they still require defense to block and protect them, to feed them the ball at the appropriate time and so on. These battles in Baseball also test the limits of humankind's capabilities and skills, one cannot throw harder than around 101 or 102 mph. In the evolution of baseball, since its inception in the late 19th century, and although we didn't have hand held speedometers, pitchers velocity hasn't likely increased. It also tests the batter, as one has to swing as soon as the pitchers releases the ball. Scientifically and technically speaking, hitting a small ball going tops of 100 mph with a cylindrical bat is the most difficult feat to accomplish in all of sports.
In other sports, methods of scoring are not nearly as difficult. Catching a Football-running and shooting a Basketball in a hoop isn't as complex and technically challenging as hitting a Baseball in the majors. A Japanese man once remarked on how perfect a sport Baseball is for Japan, that its ideally suited for the Japanese mentality and what the country desires out of a team sport. Japan is also a big fan of Golf, because as the legend goes, it is cheaper and faster for rich Japanese businessmen to fly to the US and play there than it is in their own Japan. They seem to be fond of mathematical and precise ball striking games, such as Baseball and Golf. At the time of writing this article, A Japanese player is trying to become the first person of his country to make it to the NFL. The reason I'm mentioning Japan is because of its mathematical attractiveness. I once had an enlightening moment where I see every single play, out, swing, throw as making numbers which you can crunch, this is the field of saber metrics, by analyzing these numbers for areas like specialization. Another moment made me look at the game as a gladiator arena, where people are challenged to the very peak and potential of their skills. Essentially a survival of the fittest contest for peoples entertainment.

My intended initaitive

I ntend to start publishing on this blog at least a bi-weekly article where I remark on two stories+ from BBC's World Edition feed, whose five most recent articles can be seen on the right. I will do at least two of them but more if I find other ones interesting. I will probably publish the first sometime tonight or tomorrow.

Diary Entry - World War 3?

The theory Michael Mendelbaum puts forth (or at least one of them) in his book The Case for Goliath suggests The United States of America has been serving a necessary and important role as the World's government post-WWII and during the Cold War, and although the world might not need all of those services anymore, the absence of a large, established, and declared state (as of yet, and not including al-Qaeda and other terrorist organizations) to effectively oppose the US military-wise is proof we can't be seen as that bad around the world and many nations don't object to our presence but rather welcome it. Sure one can argue that America's mere presence is enough of a deterrent to people to oppose it militarily but that argument can go on forever, it is just like going around is circles. Have we risen as that powerful of a force after World War II that no country after it (other than the USSR) actively oppose it on an equal base, could a nation become that powerful in such a small amount of time? Just like during the Cold War, America was preferred by the majority of sovereign states because we were the lesser of two evils. America can still provide useful services around the world despite the end of the Cold War.
-----America is trying to become a better superpower, as we have noticed we are currently the only one. No force is policing us, therefore it is up to us to conduct matters in our hands properly, and not abuse the power. Just like people, countries make mistakes. The backbone of all nations is the government and every branch relies on people. The potential for corruption is present at all times, as a complete democracy is not yet possible. Any group, even large ones, have the possibility of corruption lingering at all times. It can be argued America is currently in that position, but things pass and hopefully Bush's administrations mistakes don't pop up in the future. All we can do is learn from the mistakes we have made and do better in the future, hopefully preventing further mistakes in the future. We may have failed at times in the past and are encountering rough patches in the present. You can't make progress if you're too afraid to fail. A willingness to potentially fail is the only way to truly make progress. Without deviation, progress is not possible. Perhaps if all people were too scared to make the world a better place, like the US has been attempting, maybe we would currently be embroiled in yet another World War.
-----Perhaps WWIII is currently being waged, out of the attempt to spread peace, the principles of democracy and free market, which is currently the most effective economic system currently available around the world. The US is leading the way in this global campaign which can be misconstrued and mistakenly seen as an attempt at global domination. I understand how it may seem that way to some people, because of the misunderstood and misguided conflicts we have gotten involved in lately. At times we might be pushing the limits trying to spread our "ideals" around the world but those are ones that have reasonably worked for us now and in the past all around the world. Though some nations may not think this will work for them, you might as well cooperate to avoid unnecessary deaths and later on peacefully create a different type of government and economy. Our method may not be perfect but it is a work-in-progress and can anyone provide a better method other than dictatorial, totalitarian, and religiously oppressive governments?

The Middle East, Part 1

POTENTIAL TARGETS AND FUTURE AMERICAN ADMINISTRATIONS
AND WHAT THAT MEANS TO OUR DESIRE FOR GLOBAL DOMINATION

So, playing the devil's advocate and humoring nay-sayers, if America intends to conquer the world, what would be the best and therefore the most logical next step towards accomplishing that goal? We are currently in the process of securing the majority of the known oil in the world. It just so happens that in order for a military the size of America's to operate and get things done, a vast amount of oil is required, and to kill two birds with one stone, we are keeping it out of the hands of potential threats by getting it first. The first on the list is rogue governments operating in the Middle East and the most visible one those at the time, was Iraq and apparently after that ---- Iran.
-----Though Iran could cause even more trouble than Iraq is right now, and god knows how long our forces will be tied up there until we can confidently move on, that is out of the question, for now. If we ever do get around to invading, our next target would likely be North Korea but at the writing of the article, NK's government appears to be more willing in dealing with Nuclear protection people. That is a brief list and discussion of primary military targets being waged right now and possibly in the future. Now I would like to move on to what the post-Bush administration might look like and how these people are going to approach the preceding military intervention plans.
-----It seems very likely that the Democrats are going to take power after Dubya and his cronies but that doesn't necessarily mean the war is going to end anytime soon. A hasty retreat and another war against Iraq that remains unfinished business would surely prove to be a problem and threat to America's future. What would Hillary or Barack's approaches likely be? They might finish the Iraq war but I cannot imagine their administration nor the American people allowing another hairy war anytime soon. To finalize the opinion in what wars with North Korea or Iran would look like, if we fight the traditional "Tank on tank" style of warfare we would rule militarily as always but if the people refuse to cooperate with us another unconventional war will ensue. So hopefully we can squash their ability to fight us in any way but directly and post-invasion/nation-building operates smoothly after major military activity ceases.